To console a bereaved friends and relatives say death is not the end. The deceased, they say remains a source of inspiration for the closest persons to him/her. Some even feel the presence of the deceased around them all the time. But notwithstanding all this, death separates a person from the loved one. The deceased disappears for good. What an irony? The person you love the most leaves you when you need him/her the most. But then death is a hard and harsh reality of life. Death follows a strict calendar. It is never untimely. Death comes when it is destined to come.
Sometimes death relieves one of pain and that is exactly what happened to my soul mate on November 22, 2012. But she embraced death like a valiant solider. She bore testimony to oneness of Allah, Prophethood of Muhammad (SAW) and sought pardon for her sins before leaving for her heavenly abode.
When she left, I realized she was my dawn and my dusk. I shared my life’s best moments with her.
People are born and people die. But when she died a vacuum was created in my life. I had a blessed childhood and a blessed family too. One needs a partner in life. Nobody can live it alone. Marriage is a union of two souls. The partners share moments of grief and joy. They stand by each other in difficult times and hold hands to smile together when going is smooth.
The day I was told that my wife was suffering from breast cancer was very hard. How could it be true? But she once again stood by me. We decided to fight it together and we did, for some time until that fateful day when I was informed that she had blood cancer.
On November 22, she started her eternal life. She is now at a place where there are no ailments, no sufferings and no worries. I know she lives there in peace. Though I cannot see her, but she is always there besides me, looking at me, smiling at my mistakes.
Our relation lasted eighteen years and during all these years she ensured that I stayed comfortable. Whenever I was in distress, she would sit beside me and together we would lighten the hilly burdens.
She was not just my life partner; she was more a teacher and used to give me the lessons of life. I feel short of words to describe her personality. All I can say is that she gave me a reason to live, a reason to smile and a reason to survive. She was indeed God’s most beautiful gift to me.
Eight years have passed. This separation has also changed my life. Apparantly I am alone but as mentioned earlier, I feel her beside me always. I cannot blame Allah the almighty for snatching her from me. I can only pray for her. I have been seeking a choicest place for her in the Jannah.
Now that she is not before me I miss her every moment and every hour. I have vehemently compromised with life now. Her death posed the biggest challenge of life to me.
Times are very hard but as they say the show has to go one. I am not going to give up because by doing so I will only be insulting her. She believed in struggle and that is exactly what I have been doing all these years. The show will go on and I shall continue to miss her and pray for her. This is the reality of life.
“To Him we belong and to Him we shall return” (Al Quran. )